Spicy Sweet Fairytale

Nothing like tackling the big subjects. I am not sure even where to start. This isn't going to be a sappy post, or at least I don't really intend it to be. I come from a background of abuse. I was physically, emotionally and mentally abused as a child. I was basically on my own from age 15 until I graduated high school at 17 when I joined the Navy. Luckily I still lived in my family home. Luckily my parents paid the electricity, they were just NEVER there, which was better than getting the shit beat out of me on a daily basis. I have two younger sisters, who were never abused by my mother. My father was my hero, until I realized that in order to avoid conflict, he'd rather ignore what was happening right under his nose. My father is a military man, as was his father before him. My mother and father met while both of them were in the Army and stationed in Germany. My maternal grandfather was also in the military, and served in both the Korean Conflict and in Vietnam. P

Like with any couple, there are things that are in the way. Obviously in a long distance relationship, one of the big ones is distance. Something that we aren't quite ready to bridge yet, but are definitely impatient and anxious to bridge as well. Right now we are pushing that off for the time being but also tentatively trying to come up with viable options to make it work. As the parent of three kids, it was definitely a hurdle to "introduce" Spicy into their lives.  Something we did in May, after many months of talking and texting. Incredibly the kids absolutely adore him, and he adores them in return. Over the last several weeks they've been getting closer and closer. Honestly, it was a big relief that they all get along so well and that they too are excited about the next step. Another hurdle is that we don't have a whole lot in common as far as well... anything.  I am a total nerd, who loves comic book movies, and tv shows. I love nature documentaries

What I like about you?... Do you ever ask yourself this question when you're thinking about your significant other? I never used to... However, lately, I find myself asking that question about Sweet very often. It's not that I am looking for any form of confirmation of why I am in love with her but it's more along the lines of finding more and more reasons why I am in love with her. Believe me, they tend to keep adding up as the days go by. Surprisingly...I was very amazed at how many reasons pop up just off the top of my head Things like: Eye Color (Her eyes are this beautiful blend of blue and green ...They make me melt The way her glasses rest on the bridge of her nose...it's highly sexy and intoxicating and I don't even know why... The way her hair looks in the morning when she first wakes up. It's never really messy, it just lays there so elegantly and gracefully...matched with her eyes she looks so much like a goddess when she first w

The simplest things...like this scenery, I want to share it all with Sweet.  Ever wake up thinking to yourself that you're still inside of a dream? Every day for a little over eight months has been that way for me.  The surreality of this life (this life that will soon evolve to not just having me but also four others) seems to hit me most when I first wake up...I guess it's because I wake up happy now. Most mornings I grab at my phone to cut my alarm off, but there is a small sweet moment for me when I swipe past my lock code for my alarm and land on my home screen. There is usually at least one notification lit up on one of the various messenger apps that Sweet and I use. She makes my mornings worth waking up for, just to read that simple "Morning Baby". At first, the words felt so foreign to me. Maybe because I was not used to showing affection with past relationships, but so rapidly did the foreign feeling begin to fade away. Now it's basi

Once Upon a time... Isn't that how all fairytales begin, or how they used to anyway? How does one begin a modern day fairytale? I suppose in the beginning I have to introduce you to the main characters, or in this case I need to introduce myself. I'm... We will go with Sweet. I'm 36 years old (37 is only a little over a month away.) I'm a mom of three kids aged 11 (SurferDude) , 10(Redneck), and 7(The Princess). I am currently living in small town Missouri. I've been married and divorced, and married... and still awaiting the divorce papers even though we've been separated for almost 6 years. It's amicable enough at this point and we are great at co-parenting our 3 children most of time. He lives across the country in upstate NY, so quite a trek for the kids twice a year. Long story short, when my ex (We'll call him Vanilla) and I split, I "came out" as a lesbian.. except I quickly discovered that I still found men attractive so